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Sunday, October 28, 2007

A ChAnCe...

Everytime I lay down
It feels so good for me to have you this way
The only other thing I wish I had was a chance
A chance To tell you how I feel about you
And how it feels to live without a chance
A chance To tell you I'll love you forever
Knowing that I'll never have a chance
Sometimes reality hurts
And you wonder if life's worth Living at all
Knowing no matter how much you care
You'll never have a prayer Of having what you want
At least I've been close enough
I could taste Beauty at it's best
But never a trace of a chance




Absence
~ Pablo Neruda


I have scarcely left you
when you go in me, crystalline,
or trembling,
or uneasy,
wounded by me
or overwhelmed with love,
as when your eyes
close upon the gift of life
that without cease I give you.
My love,we have found each other
thirsty and we have
drunk up all the water and the blood,
we found each other
hungryand we bit each other
as fire bites,leaving wounds in us
.But wait for me,
keep for me your sweetness.
I will give you too
a rose.

Romeo and Juliet
Act 2, Scene 2
ROMEO
But, soft! what light through yonder window breaks?
It is the east, and Juliet is the sun.
Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon,
Who is already sick and pale with grief,
That thou her maid art far more fair than she
:Be not her maid, since she is envious;
Her vestal livery is but sick and green
And none but fools do wear it;
cast it off.
It is my lady, O, it is my love!O,
that she knew she were!
She speaks yet she says nothing: what of that?
Her eye discourses; I will answer it.I am too bold, 'tis not to me she speaks:
Two of the fairest stars in all the heaven,
Having some business, do entreat her eyes
To twinkle in their spheres till they return.What if her eyes were there, they in her head?
The brightness of her cheek would shame those stars,
As daylight doth a lamp; her eyes in heavenWould through the airy region stream so bright
That birds would sing and think it were not night.
See, how she leans her cheek upon her hand!O, t
hat I were a glove upon that hand,
That I might touch that cheek!

JULIET

Ay me!

ROMEO
She speaks
:O, speak again, bright angel! for thou art
As glorious to this night,
being o'er my head
As is a winged messenger of heaven
Unto the white-upturned wondering eyes
Of mortals that fall back to gaze on him
When he bestrides the lazy-pacing clouds
And sails upon the bosom of the air.
JULIET
O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name
Or, if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love,And I'll no longer be a Capulet.
ROMEO
[Aside] Shall I hear more, or shall I speak at this?
JULIET
'Tis but thy name that is my enemy;
Thou art thyself, though not a Montague.What's Montague?
it is nor hand, nor foot,Nor arm, nor face, nor any other part
Belonging to a man. O, be some other name!What's in a name?
that which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet;
So Romeo would, were he not Romeo call'd,
Retain that dear perfection which he owes
Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name,
And for that name which is no part of theeTake all myself.
~ William Shakespeare



" WhaT iS LoVe..??"

"Just because someone doesn't love you in the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they've got. "

"For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it. "
Ivan Panin

"Even a very small degree of hope is enough to cause the birth of love."
Stendhal

"You may only be one person to the world, but you may also be the world to one person." "We learn only from those we love."
Johann Von Eckermann

"My advice to you is not to inquire why or whither, but just enjoy your ice cream while it is on your plate."
Thornton Wilder

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..11 Signs u like someone alot..

ELEVEN:You walk really slow when you're withthem.
TEN:You feel shy whenever they're around.
N INE:You smile when you hear their voice.
EI GHT:When you look at them, you can't seethe other people around you, you justsee him/her.
SIX:They're all you think about.
FI VE:You realize you're always smiling whenyou're looking at them.
FOU R:You would do anything for them, justto see them.
THR EE:While reading this, there was oneperson on your mind this whole time.
TWO :You were so busy thinking about thatperson, you didnt notice number sevenwas missing
O NE:You just scrolled up to check & arenow silently laughing at yourself.



AnD u Noe Wat...I mIss SEVEN...

Monday, October 15, 2007

It wasn't meant to be

In solace I cry
Leaving one for whom I'd die
Only to find the tears that fell
Venus damned me to frolick in hell
Ever after the story closed
Yet "happy" never scarred the prose
On and on, i wish again
Upon that star for my life to end
Another "I love you" gone to waste
My love for you has soiled its taste
A being that could bring much woe
Leaving nothing and nothing more
Into the dark I look for love
Never once i thought the one from above
'Angel', she cried, self-proclaimed.
Could high such pride and joy in shame
Hold me high and crumble down
Another lesson, a love, a frown
Now he's gone....

Your heart like a winter night

You passed me by,
didn't speak, didnt smile,
going off with an angry head toss
you left me 'neath the cold moonlight
Your heart like a winter night.
I phoned to you,
write letters, no reply,
Take back those words unkind, I implore
You turned from me in bitter spite
Your heart like a winter night.
I've lost it all
love gone, so alone
I'm torn to shreds, my heart is mocked
You've left me such a sorry sight
Your heart like a winter night.
Now at Death's door
Shadows fall o'er my heart
Take back those words unkind, I beseech
I fake a laugh, I speak in fright
your heart like a winter night.
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....thriving on sorrow and the shadows of the night. I seek solace in pale moonlite, pondering...pondering...how could such lovely eyes be blind?

I am but...warped and twisted

Hidden secret nobody knows
Can't tell anyone, thats how it goes
Harsh words and violent blows
"Raging rivers, gently never flow."
My eyes are open, my hands are fisted
Deep inside i'm warped and twisted
"Too many whens, too many whys
so many tricks, so many lies."
I'm not special, i'm not gifted
I'm just me, warped and twisted.
Sleeping awake choking on dreams
To many things that are not what they seem
Call my mind, the numbers unlisted
Deep inside, im warped and twisted.
On my knees alive but dead
I can't stop the voices in my head
Look at the blood my razor sheds
You'd think by now I would be dead
Am i too far gone? my mind was drifted
I'm just totally warped and twisted
Burnt out, washed up empty and hollow
Today is just yesterdays tomorrow
The sun goes down, the moon is lifted
and I'm still here warped and twisted.
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......tis was written in view of what happened a few months ago on self-reflection. Nay, i wasn't proud but i lost everything and the only "one" i so longed for. Till my pen bleeds its ink again.....

Who I Want to Meet:

An angel sent just for me...
Someone to share problems, happiness, everything with... One who will change me for the better... Someone i'm afraid to be around with... Someone like ...lips of an angel, eyes representing the stars, heart purer than anything else... Voice that soothes, smile that melts...I love you... Like the flower loves the sun... I'll protect you, like the thorns of the rose... I need you, more than i'd need myself...It's real, i promise... Trust me...

Sunday, October 14, 2007

another dae...another post...

on...
05/10/2007
im havin alot of FUN wit my BESTIES!! [hajar, myra, peah, nurul, shark..]
haha..the best part is the true or dare game..haha..neva imagine we did dat..!! shark was choosing dare..so she had to take the construction worker boot and hide it behind the pilar..
so on and on..den it was my turn..i choose dare..they dare me to take dat boot and put it the middle of the road..i did it..bt i took it and run den i juz throw it in the middle of the road..it was DAMN FUNNY..!!! LOL..!! we r actuali cheering MYRA up coz she was upset wit the math paper we took todae..[ hey gerl, rileks ah..u studied very hard 4 it ..!!i noe u cn make it..!!i believe in u..!!Dun loSt hope okae..!!:)]

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Oh gosh...wen will u change..??
cn u stop bothering me..??i mean mayb nt u bt ur shadows does..!!
I HATE IT..!!B urself gerl..u told me dat u i change..??
Well, i was myself all dis while..ah..no use toking bout dis coz u neva listen to me..
u will regret 1 dae..

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i n hajar juz miss hangin out wit her..wen will she undrstand e situation..?? dat fucking ass gerl is a bad influence to u gerl..!! cnt u c it..?? it will lead u to sumtin dat u regret 1 dae..!!
i thiught dat dae was a wake up call to u..!! U did notin bout it..?? ur result may b beta den me..bt ur att. is worse den an animal..!! u're sumone hu forgets frens...!!! i n hajar almost cry toking bout u...i did cry bout u wit hajar...CLIMATE CHANGES BT NEVA IS HEART...PLZ B e OLD U..!!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

**HEarTBrOkEn**

I felt the need to be with you forever the want for you to hold me in your arms so tight we had a great love the first time you kissed me. I couldn't have been happier for all the times you said you'd love me until like you were going to loose me but baby i'm still alive the night you said it wasn't goin to work between us.I thought my life was at end.I cried for hours a day.I saw you with other girls the pain I felt was indescribable how could you hurt me so bad why do I flinch every time I hear the name __*******_____ all the words you said all the kisses we shared all the love we made was it all just a game but it was love just the same its been a few months since. I've last spoken to you but not a day goes by that I haven't thought of you i have one last question the remaining thought on my mind which in truth is going to be followed by many others. I want to know, _*******______ was it wasted love

**HEarTBrOkEn**

I felt the need to be with you forever the want for you to hold me in your arms so tight we had a great love the first time you kissed me. I couldn't have been happier for all the times you said you'd love me until like you were going to loose me but baby i'm still alive the night you said it wasn't goin to work between us.I thought my life was at end.I cried for hours a day.I saw you with other girls the pain I felt was indescribable how could you hurt me so bad why do I flinch every time I hear the name __*******_____ all the words you said all the kisses we shared all the love we made was it all just a game but it was love just the same its been a few months since. I've last spoken to you but not a day goes by that I haven't thought of you i have one last question the remaining thought on my mind which in truth is going to be followed by many others. I want to know, _*******______ was it wasted love

I promise

"I promise, I promise
to stay by your side."
So where are you now?
Looks like you lied.
"I promise I promise
we'll always be friends."
Another torn promise,
you ran in the end.
It wouldn't be right
to beg or to cry.
You don't have to wait
for an old friend to die.
You don't need to stay
when your heart wants to run.
you've done enough now
you loaded my gun
you opened the bottle
put the pills in my palm
and left me alone,
to wait for the calm.
"I promise to write
I promise to call."
I sat by the window
as spring turned to fall.
"I promise, I promise"
now look what you've done
in so many words
you loaded my gun.
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......so much it seems the words of Man. But as said, the world's a stage and people are but the players. Written in thought of how it would be like to have to wait for someone...to wait....and wait......in vain.

JuZ AnoTheR Day..


HELLO AGAIN..!!

------>>FiQaH<<-------

Went to MyRA house juz noW..was waitiNg fOr My Abg..LmBat GilEr seY..SempaT tNgok tV kaT umAH Dier..BlaJaR GeOg..AND MAnDi Kat SAnEr..!!her House is Like A cyber CaFe..AhAkzZ..ShaRk Was SO FuNii..!! N SheS AlwAeS FuNII..RacHel LooKs faScINatEd wIt The WaTer BabIeS..Juz LikE mS NuR..


In The MOrNinG..

was LaTe for SkUl...Do U beLievE i ActuAllY Cry CoZ i Was LAte..?/!! WeLL, I dId..My Mum GAve Me $10..So i TooK the cAB..AND i Wasnt Late..[ I LurVe U Mum..!!] ..


[ ExaM][ TerrIfIed][No HoPe..]
...ToDae Was ScI papeR..peopLe KeeP AsKiNg " how Do U Find The PaPer?"
..I SERIOUSLY...hav no FeeLinGs FoR tHE pApEr..
2MoRo iS geOg..A KonFerM No HopE..
FollOw By LiT..Fri Is MaTh..MoN..Is MAlAy P2..And The lAsT Day Is Math p1..[ ATLAST..!!LASt PAPER..!!!]


[Hu am I.??][HeLp FiqAh In FinDinG Her LoSt IdenTiTy][JK][juZ 4 FuN]

[ im A bItCh..!!][i Noe Dat..!!]


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