It wasn't meant to be

In solace I cry
Leaving one for whom I'd die
Only to find the tears that fell
Venus damned me to frolick in hell
Ever after the story closed
Yet "happy" never scarred the prose
On and on, i wish again
Upon that star for my life to end
Another "I love you" gone to waste
My love for you has soiled its taste
A being that could bring much woe
Leaving nothing and nothing more
Into the dark I look for love
Never once i thought the one from above
'Angel', she cried, self-proclaimed.
Could high such pride and joy in shame
Hold me high and crumble down
Another lesson, a love, a frown
Now he's gone....

Your heart like a winter night

You passed me by,
didn't speak, didnt smile,
going off with an angry head toss
you left me 'neath the cold moonlight
Your heart like a winter night.
I phoned to you,
write letters, no reply,
Take back those words unkind, I implore
You turned from me in bitter spite
Your heart like a winter night.
I've lost it all
love gone, so alone
I'm torn to shreds, my heart is mocked
You've left me such a sorry sight
Your heart like a winter night.
Now at Death's door
Shadows fall o'er my heart
Take back those words unkind, I beseech
I fake a laugh, I speak in fright
your heart like a winter night.
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....thriving on sorrow and the shadows of the night. I seek solace in pale moonlite, pondering...pondering...how could such lovely eyes be blind?

I am but...warped and twisted

Hidden secret nobody knows
Can't tell anyone, thats how it goes
Harsh words and violent blows
"Raging rivers, gently never flow."
My eyes are open, my hands are fisted
Deep inside i'm warped and twisted
"Too many whens, too many whys
so many tricks, so many lies."
I'm not special, i'm not gifted
I'm just me, warped and twisted.
Sleeping awake choking on dreams
To many things that are not what they seem
Call my mind, the numbers unlisted
Deep inside, im warped and twisted.
On my knees alive but dead
I can't stop the voices in my head
Look at the blood my razor sheds
You'd think by now I would be dead
Am i too far gone? my mind was drifted
I'm just totally warped and twisted
Burnt out, washed up empty and hollow
Today is just yesterdays tomorrow
The sun goes down, the moon is lifted
and I'm still here warped and twisted.
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......tis was written in view of what happened a few months ago on self-reflection. Nay, i wasn't proud but i lost everything and the only "one" i so longed for. Till my pen bleeds its ink again.....

Who I Want to Meet:

An angel sent just for me...
Someone to share problems, happiness, everything with... One who will change me for the better... Someone i'm afraid to be around with... Someone like ...lips of an angel, eyes representing the stars, heart purer than anything else... Voice that soothes, smile that melts...I love you... Like the flower loves the sun... I'll protect you, like the thorns of the rose... I need you, more than i'd need myself...It's real, i promise... Trust me...